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oh my goodness... wats wrong with me??!! i am here... blogging about my..... boring boring boooooooooring life.... so wat should i say?

I love you.... there's no one for me to love... not yet anyway i guess... i tried, maybe? but i dont think its love at all... lust? or... wats that... its just... "like"... am i right? well of course putting the family aside...

can i share my love with someone?

I want a hug.... yes indeed i need a hug... why? i dunno why... i just need that comforting feeling... hugging family is just not the same... is it? maybe its because i dont share my own thoughts... hence they dont hug me the way i need a hug... but wat can i say?? i dont even know what am i thinkin myself....

I need attention... attention/be pampered/be comforted... watever suits u the best... but at the same time, i dun wan to commit... maybe... again with the maybe... the grass is greener the other side... but once u're there... surely the other place is... duhhh... greener!!

I... its always i...... how bout you?? whoever you are... when are u coming to me?? do i have to wait YEARS for u? maybe i do... maybe i will be better off that way... gosh.... why? why do i always feel this way... i want something.. yet, i dont want it too.... wat do i want in life??? argh!

are u even coming....

._. sigh, nvm la... let nature take its path... follow destiny... be led by faith!! @.@

can i go through the mirror and just witness things?

i dont know how to lead my life....

take me away....

~Luv Linz~

all these thoughts up in muh head...

ever experienced something good or bad... then after that always think of it that way? for example... altho i did not experience the accident (the lrt crash) i somehow feel afraid of trains a lil... when i sat the train today.. lookin out the window to the tracks... and seeing another train coming at me.. it was like... it was scary... i felt like i jz wanna shut my eyes and hold on tight... this is all... something that u just cant control... i cant push the fear away either... there's no way my family is gonna pick me up from college instead of me taking the train...

this also then implies to my love life... or should i just say my life... having to fall soooooooooo easily for ppl, i dont spill out my feelings... i nvr did.. and even if i did, it was after something.. like he already had a gf and i had a bf, so fine, i just fessed up... that was saying i liked him b4... bt besides that, i dun think i've ever told someone i liked him first... i nvr did... till that one day, i was jz stupidly let him decide whether we were a couple or not... with that then again, i promised myself... the second time again... that i dun want to be in a relationship so fast....

one experience will change everything... a false move and u will never feel like doing it again.. first relationship gone wrong = nvr wanting a bf (well sort of), the train crash... and last time, during mooncake festival or sth i think... i witness from afar... a big forest flame... it was so scary.. standing on the outside stairs, it looked as if the flames will get closer n closer until it burnt down the house too.. at that point, i kept wanting to go home, go home!! (i was at grandparents place) driving back... i saw a small part of the forest burnt down to ashes... then today... something else caught fire... a small one.. but lookin at it... it just patrifies u sometimes... be sure to think twice b4 lighting a fire ever again...

guess all we have left are memories... and lessons... but again... all these things cant be changed... i still have to go on trains, fire is still around me.. and relationships... it cant be stopped can it? this is called life.... u wanna live yet u wanna die... LOL... aih... enuf la... dun wan talk already.. or rather type... @.@

Luv Linz

Shopping!!~

dont u just LOVEEEE shopping??!! the places to go~ the things to see!! the different styles, colours~ brands~!! all jz waiting for u to bring them home!! FASHION~~!! tell u one thing tho.. i hate shopping... =.= THE AMOUNT OF COLOURS... the matching headache... the price!! i tell u.. OMG!!! i saw one shoe... it cost 99.90 and my mouth already open so big.. walk around tot will hv cheaper... bt i tell u... HEART ATTACK AH!!! the prices were like... 299 or 399... FOR SHOES!! omg.... its just shoes!! its just cars!! ferrari and bicycle wats the difference?? both can sit 2 ppl both can bring u from one place to the other... u wan bicycle oso can hv 4 wheels... (jz jokin bout the bicycle n ferrari part)

BT SERIOUSLY LA!!! so much for just shoes?? goodness.. not me.. my aunt was buyin stuff for me as part of bday present or sth.. from the $100 shoes... i brought it down to a shoe that cost onli bout $30... aint i such a good gal?? i jz dun rly like shopping sometimes la... walk until leg pain... my sis was telling me.. dun look at the price first... see the shoe which u like... in my head... wat for wanna fall in love with the shoes if u know u cant get it... and once u see the price ur heart drops... might as well see the price then u wont like the shoe already.. =.=

anyway...on to today's event.... was kinda fun... went out, met jullie n jason.. met edward,ivy,gerina,carina.. met sam.. then met joseph... then met sams frens... or was it joseph after her frens? aiya watever la.. who cares... erh.. went to eat at paddingtons... split and went wit joseph n jullie eat doughnut... went to watch movie.. MAMA MIA!!! FANTASTIC SHOW!! MUST WATCH!! then... went jusco.. then split.. went to mom.. then went to aunty... buy shoes... walk here n there for one pair... @.@ dinner ate at Tony Romas or sth like tat... food was yummy!! chicken, lamb, salmon... shared with family 5 ppl.. service was superb! coz my family went there for lunch, suddenly someone gave us 10% discount... then my mom said thnx and said they made the day extra special as it was her bday celeb kind of thing, they suddenly gave extra dessert on the house.. YUMMMMM!!!~~ hot cake with ice cream... drool... wanna go there again!! ahahaha... hmmmmmm......... ok la... dun wan say anything already.. lazy!!~ pictures another time.. ahaha!! CYA THEN!!

Luv Linz